edit: managed to get to a terminal. i think its just my pc without a gui.. now how to change kernel
after following this I changed my kernal to zen.
its okay and boots normaly but at some point I turn my pc off and now its stuck on booting in a very strange way.
after the mobo logo,
I see a message "welcome to grub" for a split seccond (this is as it always has been tho) and then im taken to
»»»
booting 'Garuda, on linux-zen'
error: sparse file not allowed.
Loading kernel linux-zen ...
Loading initial ramdisk ...
Press any key to continue...
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either I press a key or wait a few secconds, and it goes into booting with the daemons and the green "OK" on the side, as usual, then gets stuck on one of them. its just stops and does nothing.
the last line, ever present, is not an error, but a green OK like the rest, and its "Finished - Deactivate Plymouth Boot Screen."
tho to note, there is no Plymouth screen at all. also it goes fast/ is a shorter list than usual. I dont think it does all the usual booting things .